A Holiday i want!

Yep, it's a holiday that i want, and a job that i need.
I figured out that if i want a holiday, i'll gotta work. Coz i'll need money to finance my trip to where it is.

Most probably somewhere cheap and near like Malaysia, or Bangkok, or Phuket. Seriously somewhere affordable. Im getting really bored staying in Singapore. Boo Boo Bored!

Today's peaceful and all, with me sleeping the entire day til about 5pm. I woke up and dressed for dinner with beanie and his folks. We had dinner over at the Fairways club. Some Japanese Restaurant that his family fancies. I do agree that the food there is pretty good, and it so happened that Buffets are served during weekends, so they decided to get the bufffets instead.

We ate alot, with the usual japanese dishes. Personally, i had 3 bowls of Chawanmushi, Califonian Maki, 1 stick of Teriyaki Chicken, lots of Tempura Prawns(3 servings!), 1 Tempura Mushroom, some eel, potato croquets ( beanie's dad fancied them, and ordered lots of them!), Can't quite remember what i had already, but eating with his folks is bad for the figure! im getting flabby and all now! Haha.. Beanie's dad likes to over order, so Beanie and i always end up being stuffed!

Dinner on Friday was scary too! We had dinner at Weslake, and they ordered enough for Africa's starving kid! We barely finished the very sumptous food. Luckily, Beanie's bro, Bernard, was around to help us finish. I swear i had difficulty walking after that!

After dinner today, Beanie and i went to meet Kevin and Mandy at McCafe Westcoast to chill out. Roy joined us later, and this other friend of theirs that i've never met before, this guy named George, and his GF. Chilled out for awhile, and we left ( most of them had to work tomorrow).

My saturday was miserable! I hung out at home on friday night with beanie til 6 plus in the morning, and we both went to bed at 7. I got woken up by a phone call from mommy, telling me to close the window, as it was raining, and a phone call from Ann, telling me that the clothes seriously doesn't match, and she needs me to be at Far East at 3pm, so we'll be able to start shopping for clothes. If u slept at 7 in the morinng, the last thing you needed was to be woken up in the early noon. I had to drag myself away from comfy bed, and dress up to get my exhausted ass over to Far East! Boo!

Brought a whole collections of potential outfits from home, and only one top was approved by Ann. So she decided that i should bring that mango top out for shopping, to get a nice bottom to complement it. But after walking for abit, Miss Ann here simply insisted on marching over to Takashimayato buy the dumb shoes. Guess she couldnt get the freaking shoes out of her mind, and it's exactly her idea of Fashion! I cursed that freaking blind designer that created them, ( u gotta refer to my previous entries to have a slight idea about blind designers). Yes the feathery shoe designer!! Gawd! it's stilettos too!

Ann made me walk in the stilettos instead of my preferred choice of flat slippers. We walked from Takashimaya, over to Scotts, to try on a skirt from Latte that we saw earlier. The skirt, i must admit, is pretty swishy and flirty kind of skirt. It's floral and sweet..something i don't exactly fancy, but i think it's alright ( just not my style , it's too sweetie pie!). So i was like whatever! The faster i settle the outfit, the faster i get myself out of throttling around in heels.
She paid for it, and insisted that i ditch my trusty brown corduroy pants, for the skirt. So that i wouldn't need to change in and out of it, while we hunt for a complementing top.The Latte skirt cost slightly over a hundred and fifty. (thank God i wasn't paying for it. ) We walked around like mad the entire day, trying to get things to match the damn skirt and shoes. So there i was, throttling around in the heels, the swishy dressy skirt, walking around town, hoping for a top to match.

Let's just say that my shopping escapade lasted from 3pm - 9pm. It's hard work walking in heels, and opposing violently to bad fashion sense everytime we wound up in a shop. I ended up having tiny blisters on both of my last toe! Pissed i am, i got to admit that she simply has bad taste. She not only has no concept of modern dressing, neither has she got any color coordination skills.

I was wearing my very own top, which is of a coral/flamingo color. And i seriously think that the top that i was wearing, matches pretty well with the skirt's color. As no other color would suit it any better than that in my very own opinion. (cept that the top might be alittle too funky for the very sweet skirt, so all we need to do, is to look for a tube or something that's of similar color to the top that im wearing now, and we'll be done!)

Instead, she insisted on attempting to match the skirt with colors like blue, black, green, red... and the skirt's a combination of yellow, pink, peach and a touch of coral color on it. God..someone help her with her colors! She wasted my time, and we wounded up buying a mango spagethetti top at nearly 8:30.

It seems fine, but i looked like im wearing a dress, rather than a 2 piece. I went home limping, and all, ate like a cow while i was at Newton with beanie. We ordered like a bowl of fish soup noodles, chicken wings, oyster omelette, carrot cake, some rojak thingie and i had cocnut juice!

Went for a walk around Marina(now that im walking with my comfy cushy slippers, im fit for a walkathon!) and went home. Just as i was stepping out of the lift, Zoe called. So i went to meet Zoe, and the others over at Essential Brew, Holland V. Chilled out for alittle while, complained about my very sad and pathetic shopping trip, and went home at 2am in the morning to sleep.

I received a call from Ann this afternoon, telling me that the top we bought from Mango ain't good enough. She decided that the coral top that i have, looks better! @#$%$#@. If that woman made up her mind earlier, i would have been spared a whole afternoon's worth of walking about!

I know im a woman, but at least im not a typical draggy kind, that simply can't decide over what she wants. It's such a hassle i tell you!! im like totally upset about it!

I've got much better things to do with my time, than to shop around aimlessly, with a woman who has bad taste! So what if the shopping trip's paid for? i don't give a damn! I swear my toenails hurt too !

Hells, guess what, i've got another appointment with her tomorrow. What bad Luck!
I swear i'll scream, if i'm made to shop again. Coz she said tomorrow's for Hair treatment with Sam, and Make up trial with her ( coz now that we changed outfit, she'll need to redo the make up that's she's planned for me. blah blah blah)

think im never so glad that Wednesday's approaching! I wonder if i'll have the energy to go mambo after that?
Seriously need some destressing here man! I need to find an outlet to chill, and vent some Anger.
Have transformed to be this really angry person recently! that's why i think a holiday would be good for the soul, take away some grumpiness in me, and revitalise my optimism level.

Guess i gotta sleep real soon, considering the fact that i gotta be up really early tomorrow.
Hate getting up early, hate doing accounts assignment. Bother!

passed!

Well, just recieved my Statistics Test results today... I managed to pass it with a Credit. Relieved i am, but im not exaclty thrilled. Was hoping for a D or somewhat. Oh yeah, you'll probabaly think that im really one of those that doesn't know CONTENTMENT.

Bah, considering the fact that im attempting the subject for the second time in my life, the grade is horrendous loh! i was expecting a Distinction for it, not just a mere Credit. It's a gross grade to get, coz i was aiming at something more than just Credit. Guess it doesn't really matter, coz eventually, even if i do get a distinction, it'll still be a pass that'll be reflected on my grades.

Fuck! why do i always have to settle for average or lousy scores, even when i tried really hard to study for it, yet others are always breezing through their studies and everything with fantastic scores?

Not that i've finally concluded that i suck at studying, (i know it perfectly well since the day i stepped into school and all..) But it just ain't fair that despite trying hard, it still isn't enough. Nothing is ever good enough seriously.

Argh! sick and tired of studying. Went for fitting and make up trial today. It turned out to be really exhausting. The clothes that Sam and Ann bought for me from Japan, turn out to be yucky. I have this serious distaste for jap fashion, coz they are absolutely horrendous, and i couldnt fit into the better looking pants, so i wound up walking around in the yucky beige capris.

Well, just my luck! Had the outrages attention seeking make up done already, then Ann decided that i'll need a pair of high heel to match the outfit. So she brought me out for shoe shopping (with the make up and bad clothes on, so she could get a pair of shoes to match the entire ensemble!) It was definitely an eye turner for most passerby who saw me, not that i have a problem with people checking me up and down to start with, for wearing weird stuff, but It's such an exhausting trip, that i totally gave up.

Shopping for something that you fancy, give you boundless energy! Yet shopping for something that you never fancied, is quite the opposite of energetic. I walked for hours, only stopping when it was 8plus at night! We hunted for accessories, the right pair of shoes, and the make up that she'll need for the competition day.

Worst bit was, after walking for what seem like many hours, we've yet to discover the right pair of shoes. Trust me, i was never more glad that i didn't purchase any of those that she sort of decided on. Shoes covered in Leopard print! Gawd! it's bloody Gawdy! pink furry shoes with pink feathers stuck onto it. How could anyone possibly even created it? The designer ought to be shot for such bad taste!

I don't know if people do actually buy it, but their taste must be really weird. Or they must be blind! Argh! i can't believe it. I'll have to wear those clothes, bad shoes and strut my way on the stage, it's seriously bad luck i supposed! Just hope that the make up is thick enough to disguise me. Then no one would recognise me! hahahah!

I ended up being very exhausted today, considering the fact that i had no food and water for the whole day until 9, im quite a shopper alright! There's part 2 on monday, with make up trial session 2, incase Ann forgets, and Sam wants to do hair treatment for me. Then there's shopping for shoes again. Argh! Bad bAd! To think that i was really happy with the arrangement and all earlier! Beaming about the new hair and all. Im seriously regreting it. Boo!

Feeling bad that i snapped at zoe earlier, when she called me at 9 plus. But you can't blame me for it, im starving, exhausted, and moody! my mouth didn't feel like moving, unless it was because of food. I just needed time off to recharge. Im sure you guys would have gone through the same shit as i did some way or another. Yeah. So i finished my very short conversation with Zoe and started on my dinner. Beef noodles never tasted so good.

Haha... Atfer the food, i had Yami Yoghurt that Beanie bought for me, and i felt alot better after dinner. Despite the fact that Christopher and Esther showed up mid dinner, i couldnt bring myself to talk, until after i was done with the yoghurt. That probably showed how tired and hungry i was. We went over to West Coast MacCafe after dinner at scotts, and talked lots of nonsense.

With pretty high probablity of going to roller blade tomorrow, im hoping that the weather would be good. I haven't been blading often, with Bean bean being busy and all. Staying home to attempt accounts questions sounds like i haven't got much of a life to lead. Yeah it's pretty much that way, with exams approaching! *groan* i wanna go on a holiday! Boo.

Lack of funding to go with beanie would be my main problem. Just counted, and there's like 8-10 pieces of new purchases, that's full of happy colored clothing sitting around, a whole box of nail polish waiting for me, colorful shoes sitting on the racks, pink and colorful bags on the shelves, and a big drawer full of colorful pajamas and undies and accessories! Told you im having a miserable time now. Black White Blue Grey Green! Bah. What a pathetic world im living in now.

1 more week. That's all i got to deal with. I wonder if the soul of a dead does really come back on the 49th day?

haha

oh yes im still upset with my grades. Ha ha!

Look!!

New Look! Nice Nice? It's not colorful, and yet it's very sugary sweet, but i figured out, Hell! It was like all stylo and funky with the Confuscious one, then it was all colorful and blinding with "pieces of me", so it should be pastel this time round!
Yes, Da says color scheme is nice and all, but there's something not quite right with this skin. Heck! it's just my third attmept at html stuff alright! ( creating excuses for myself)

I've been attempting the assignment questions for Accounts, and i realised that im quite hopeless with Accounts. Oh Gawd! i Hope im not gonna fail accounts all over again! boo!
Besides, i really really wanna pass and go on, just like any normal fella being alright!
But at least im attempting my questions much earlier than the previous ones!

Exams are like approaching really soon, but by the start of May, i'll be all done with exams! School is taking a really long time to publish the test results. Im really curious to know how i fared for the test, after all, if i fail, i'll have to work harder. If i do well, cool, it'll be an ego booster to my badly battered up one now. Ha ha.

Exams and test seems to be getting everyone down recently. As for me, i see it as a little route to get me out of my boredom. Might be busy for me soon, more challenges. I feel like a really fat Muah Chee at the moment.. no peanut coating, so im stuck in with the other lumps in the greasy pan. Ha ha.. I have a BBQ gathering to plan, a Garage Sale, and a soon to be business to start actioning on! Told you i'm a busy bummerina!

Oh did i ever mention that while mommy was away, there was this black moth that stayed with us from the day she left, til the day she gets back? If you're familiar with chinese superstition, then you might be thinking exactly the same as what im thinking of! Grandma!
ha ha... i first encoutered black moth, before i left for school on Tue afternoon. It was hovering around the entrance. The minute it saw me...it started fluttering around, then rested on the key holder at the door. As i moved to leave house, after selecting my footwear, it started to flutter into the living room. Yeah i was hopping around like a maniac, not because i was overjoyed that grandma came back, but i was petrified! im terrified of moths! hahah

So i flung and swung my arms around wildly, just like one would imagine how a mad woman look like, and left the house.
The next day, i saw black moth again. It was fluttering alittle, before settling down behind this black skirt and black blouse that mommy hung up over at the kitchen door knob on the night that she was packing her stuff. Surprisingly, i was pretty calm and composed this time.

When Leonard was at my house. i saw black moth fluttering around again. Casually, i asked him "Dear, what do moths eat?"When he replied me, he probably wouldnt have expected my reaction. But he said: " Clothes"

I walked over to the clothes on the door knob, picked them up, and black moth started flying all over me. This time, i wasn't so composed after all. Using the clothes, i started flinging them all around, breaking one hanger in the process. I left the skirt in mommy's room, with half a hanger, before leaving the house.

It was only yesterday night, that i absent mindedly mentioned about my reaction, after he told me what moths ate, that Leonard realised what i did. Ha ha. He said that he didn't expect me to actually bother shifting the clothes.

The next day, while he was over at my house again, fluttery black moth started to move all over the dining room. Being typically me, i asked Leonard to rid the moth of the house. Mothfee was hanging round pix!e's cage..so Dear turned to get a newspaper, preparing to attack mothfee. It was less than 1 min all in all, but when we turned around, Moth moth was no longer in sight! Its uncannily eerie i tell you. Leonard and i were kinda spooked out.

That's when i was pretty certain, black moth was actually Grandma hanging around to keep an eye on us, while mommy was away.

Mayb it's me being paranoid, but why would a moth appear suddenly? After all, im living on the 14th storey! i seriously doubt the moth's flying capabilities!

As i relate this story to mommy when she's back, she told me that black moth died near my brother's bag. Oops! i didn't kill her alirght!

It's driving for me later in the afternoon, and mambo at night. Thursday's a long long day!
I was supposed to take part in the game, City Quest, organised by the Council, but i had to withdraw due to a clash in schedule, and Zoe's alittle mad at me, even though she didn't say so. Sigh... i'm left with no choice girl. No choice... but Haagen Daz taste really good, when it's free though! hahah.

Had to withdraw coz i'm due at Far East at 2 this thursday for fitting, and a trial make up session. So weird, but it's a pior commitment that i've made, though no cash is involved in it. But it sure is a fun experience for me. =)

Oh well, my tum tum's rumbing. I guess i'm off to hunt for food.
Enjoy the new colors of my blog! It looks so yumy!

*slurp Slurp*

Bright and Right!

The week never looked any better, mommy's finally returning home early in the morning later, i'm rid of baby sitting the little dude. Been rather happy today for no apparent reasons, and im pretty much looking forward to receiving those packages that are due in my mailbox soon!

Have this kooky little business plan up in my head again, this time planing to collarborate with my lil sista, and we'll just see how things go! haha..will have to think of a nice name for our little business, and blah blah blah. But i guess nothing concrete's gonna happen soon, until after the exams.

Ooh! i am so excited! it's been quite sometime, since i last felt happy, light hearted and excited about life! whoo hoo! i think the same ol daphne's on her waay back! yay! i like it this way, and besides, april's approaching...meaning that i'll get to savour all that new clothes that are waiting for me! hee hee hee!

Yups, and im scheduled to have my hair done exactly the same shade as it was, for the CNY soon. I like it soooooo much! i was just flipping through my recent pictures, and i saw how much difference there was in color. The initial days, the red was so intense! Right now it's just this ugly poo poo copper orange. yuck!

Looking at this ugly orange, gave me no motivation to style it, or to even bother maintaining it. I wonder if it's because i swam too much, or was it really meant to fade to look as ugly as it is now?
Sam's warned me that the hair would eventually fade to a copperish brown shade...and i guess this is exactly what he meant by fade...but it's so disappointing! i wanted to keep the intense red for a little longer. Boo!

Oh well, i'll have to content with the fact that i'm gonna get it back to what it previously was soon. And what i have in mind, after the touch up fades off, would be something else too. But that would have to wait. The hairstyle that im sporting now, doesn't quite suit the idea that i have in mind.... patience! bleh...

I really really want to go on a holiday, but i think im too broke for one! if i ever manage to cut down on my shopping, i think it might faintly be possible. Eliminating shoppingm would definitely make the holiday possible But shopping is something waaaaay too difficult to live without! Of course i may sound bimbotic, but it's absolutely something that i swear by, to perk me up alright! There's totally nothing wrong with being bimbotic, or acting bimbotic. It's fun sometimes!

* yeah quit rolling ur eyes about that statement of mine! *

I'm still looking for a new template that i may fancy, coz im seriously getting quite sick of this one that im using right now. Changing templates are still pretty hazardous and time consuming to daphne, considering the fact that this is only my second one. I still have lots of practise to go.

Blogging seem to have lost it's fun. Sharing my thoughts, and bits of my boring life seems to be sapping alot of effort. After all, how much can u pen down, with daily events? It'll kinda gets boring, after some time. Your life is routine, and it just keep repeating and repeating. Interesting stuff does not happen everyday, unless you're easily amused by stupid stuff, like watching the grass grow, or to observe ants scuttling around the house and stuff like this.

I bet even reading the newspaper is boring. Wonder how people get all glued up with it. Insisting on reading it everyday! After all, they are pretty much the same everyday, only that u track progress of each country.... say today there's flood somewhere, someone murdered someone today...tomorrow someone else murders someone else. It happens everyday, and it ain't interesting news anymore. It's like stale news and all. Just that it happens to different parts of the world. Ever wonder why it's even called news?

Urgh! im talking nonsense! i've concluded that pix!e misses both mommy and Jan! She's alot better when Jan's home, yet she ain't her true self and all, it's still not quite her usual self. Waiting for mommy to come home. before monitoring further. If she's still not eating as much as she usually eats, i think might just bring her over to the veterinarian for a little check up, lest she suffer another fainting/breathing attack again!

It's really scary to wake up one fine afternoon, to see ur guinea pig lying down in one corner not moving at all! i've got this phobia for dead animals. Boo! Turns out that stupid pix!e had a mild heart attack, and it's quite common for guinea pigs to suffer from it. What fragile creatures they are! Hahaha makes u wonder why i fancy them in the first place right?

Coz she's a cutie pooo! and she whistles! Whee! Whee! heeheehee

oh, oh, i must be going mad. Shan't blog on further. lala

*told u im in a good mood today..can't you see it?!*

peace..

Mom's gone for a last minute business trip over to lesotho, and will only be back on the wee hours of monday morning. I'm once again the undisputed queen of the house again! (fine..sharing it with sister, but being the older one gives me more responsibilities).

With Janson bunking over at the cousin's place...the house is definitely peaceful... in fact quiet.
The fact that even pix!e sense the peacefulness, it's scary. I had this little gut feeling that she's missing either janson or mommy, coz she sure ate very little food for the past few days, and she ain't as happy as she used to be.

pix!e's like this when i once placed her all alone at the balconey..she barely touched her food.. yet the minute i put her right smack at the dining room, where the buzzing activities are, she's happier, way active, hyper in fact, and she eats and drinks alot more. Funny huh....
This sweet little poo poo is such a darling!

Well, i'll find out who she misses later, when janson comes back. If she's happy and whistly and whinny, we'll know that it's the boy she misses.. If she's still sad and grumpy, then it might be mommy that she misses...but who knows, it might be because she's feeling grumpy for no plain reasons! hahahaha!

I've been so bored! Bored to the fact that i attempted neatening the room, clearing off the dusty places, repacking the rubbish that's lying all over the floor... creating more floor space to walk around in. Took me days to complete the neatening shit!
Rearranged some shelving units, repacked and resorted my accessories and cosmetic and all!
Cleared the wardrobe, and realised that even though the cupboard is really full ( to the extent that im basically hanging 2 pieces of similar stuff on the same hanger to free up space) , i've still concluded that i have nothing to wear! Do you know how sad it is, to be standing in front of the cupboard for nearly 30 mins everyday, racking ur brains on what to wear, before deciding on some boring pathetic outfit...to step out of the house?

Did online shopping, and i've just calculated that i've just spent slightly over a hundred just on e-shopping... erm it's abit ridiculous, but the items are just plain yummy. Besides, all my shopping khakis are busy at the moment, and Leonard's not a great fan of accomapying me on my shopping escapades. No time to do it in the day, i'll just leave it to my fingers to do the job. Sometimes, i think i prefer E-shopping much more than normal shopping. Except for disadvantages like no trying and there might be slight differences in colors...everything's cool man!

Just finished dinner and KTV at KBox with Leonard and his gang. Its quite a fun trip, and i met his friend Cheryl for the first time. Quite a cool lady with her Z4.
But i just don't understand what's with guys and Nice cars. They ditch all dignity and pride...and start drooling all over it.

Yeah, Basically, when guys start meeting up with their old friends, they regain their bonding session from where they last left it. Somehow, it doesn't take an einstein to realise how left out, and how much i was sticking out, coz i wasn't part of the group in the past.
Focus wasn't me of course, as they have alot of catching up to do, while i sat around stoning, or singing.

It wasn't a bad night, just quite a bit of screaming over the microphone..so im alittle sore in the throat right now.

Yeah im still restless and it's like there's this voidness in me, that i can't explain. Something that can't simply be filled by shopping, or stuffing yourself silly with yummy food. In fact, i'm starting to believe that nothing is ever gonna satisfy away the emptyness that im experiencing right now. It's most likely a sort of restlessness, nothing much i can do, coz i've yet to figure out what i really at this point in my life.

With Exams approaching, i think the main piority would be to start revising, making sure that im not gonna fail in both the subjects, if not, i think it'll be really screwed up. Seriously, if im gonna fail one more time, i'll just drop out from school and do something else on the over all. After all, studying has already proven to have bad effects on me.

But i'll try. I'll really have to pass, whether i like it or not. Yah but anyone who knows me well enough, would be able to see that im presently really unhappy with the way my life is on the overall. Whatever i am doing, is definitely not satisfying any personal acheievements that i desire. Cluesless is a good word.

Oh i am so sick and tired of complaining about the same thing everytime i blog. I need a solution. Like real fast, before i really sink and suffocate from this serious bout of depression. It's overwhelming me, just like a quicksand scenario. Bah. so helpless.

Alright... im looking forward to all that packages that are due to arrive in my mailbox within the next few days..boy oh boy! i ain't excited. But the new stuff will make a nice change to my wardrobe. Ha ha ha.

Feeling sleepy. Might attempt to teach Janson how to cycle tomorrow. Gonna need lotsa energy on that. and yes, the dude has no freaking idea how to cycle without 2 additional wheels to give him balance. I see tomorrow as a really tiring day. Argh!

Good luck to me? I miss my mommy!

13 months

Yay! I paid Sentosa a visit today! Boo and i went over to Tanjong Beach, and settled down on a patch of sand, somewhere near KM8..the happening beach bar. Yeah it's happening and all, but i don't quite fancy the snob crowd.

With just the two of us, celebrating our 13th month together. It's just so sweet of him, to suggest a picnic over at Sentosa. My guess, would be his attempt to make up for the loss of our 12th month celebration. After all, it's not everyday that a relationship survive for more than 12 months. In my case, it was never.

Elation wouldnt exactly befit my mood now, but im seriously glad that we have withstand most problems that i have encountered in my past, and i've never felt better.
Guess the mourning period has sure gotten the better of my moods, and im still counting down towards the days when i can start wearing pink and all that bright fancy colors again! Oh well, i've put away a new wardrobe full of bright freshly colored clothings. It's so dampening to me, that i have to stare at all that new spring attire, and not be able to wear them anytime soon, so i stored them away in shopping bags! ho ho ho!

Yeah back to Sentosa. We met Gary and his GF, while we were locating a nice spot to settle down on. Talking about small world we have here! hahaha

The past few days was like Eeeee! I actually went over to the IT fair, twice! I couldnt believe why people would flock to the Fair, and clog up the entire place. The organisers should have better brains, and broaden up the pathways la. It's such cramped quarters, i felt like some overpushed trodden on coolie man!

Went there with dear and his friend, Raffles on the first day of the fair to recky the gadgets displayed. Tempted i was to get a creative zen, i ended up not buying. Probably because, i have no immediate needs to get one, also, i wouldnt know what color to choose from!

Couldnt recall if it was Eric or Kangwei who asked me to buy them all, so that i could match the MP3 player to my outfits! but hey! i would, if i had too much Dough to spare, and have no better place to spend it! haha!

While dear and i were browsing/squishing our way through the fair, i spotted his EX Gf working there. Oops! Well he claimed not to have seen her, but when i looked at her, she sure look upset and angry.. i really wonder why, after all, it's already all been more than a year...

Not that im gloating over it, but Yeah, probably if it was me, i'll be alittle upset too. Wearing the yucky creative uniform, parading with some signboard, i would be more than a mite upset, if i was spotted by my ex and his Gf looking like this. Well well.. for Money, who cares?

Went back to the fair on Saturday with Zoe and the guys, and this time, i saw Audrey. She complained about the uniform that she has to dorn on, but i think she look pretty cute in it, and she said the money is good. So i didn't comment too much. Zoe ended up buying this Dell laptop that she fancied, the next day. It's this silver and white color tiny little thing. I kinda like it too. but for all that squeezing i had to do, it'd better be worth it. I was cursing and swearing like hell for the entire Saturday. I hate crowds, coz they caused you to walk really slowly.

Impatient lil o' me, i became quite abusive with my command of language, but you really couldn't blame me. I felt like screamin, and punching whoever who gets in my way...which means i probably would have to punch like a thousand people. Haha.. i ended my day with shopping! i bought this new cutsey striped mango tube, and im still waiting for 1st April to happen. No it wouldnt be a joke, but on that day itself, i really wouldnt know what to wear, being swarmped with all that shopping that i've done, to commemorate the day where i'll be out of mourning colors! Bleh..life is so difficult ain't it?

yeah..18days left to go.. i can't wait for the day to come, though it'll also mean that exams are like inching nearer too..Bleh! hate it... you can't savour good moments without having the yucky inevitable to come along too. That's life..Oh yes, there's the yucky accounts assignment that i've yet to touch, oh how i dread doing it!

losing touch...

Yeah i know that i haven't been blogging for what seems like ages, and it's as though as everything just comes into a stop in my life!
But life moved on as usual, after all, time waits for no man!

I've been pretty busy mastering the art of majong. I picked it up slightly after my granny's funeral, mainly to kill boredom, and also to understand why people get hooked onto this game.
Even after playing for quite a few times already, i'm still not very excited about the game itself. Probably, it's because of the lack of money involvment for me, secondly, i just can't bear to put my already flat butt into further tortures!

Sitting through one majong hurts my butt alot! You guys can probably be able to imagine how much i've actually fidgetted, within that few hours!Yeah nice game, but torturous on one's butt... i can't quite decide, if i'll ever become crazy about majong, like what the entire world does?
It might be the difference in taste, or it's just purely because, im not born to be addicted to gambling. After all, it took my 21 years, to finally persuade me to even bother to learn about the game. Im still lousy at it and all, and i still think some good samaritan should attempt to come up with an illustrations manual to help beginners like me. Illustrate the different ways to win, what a "shi san yao" is like, and what "da san yuan" actually is. It's all hearsay, it's never been demonstrated, or i'm never able to remember.

Enough of Mahjong, Majong, MahJiong, whatever you spell it, it's still a game with different variations, and different set of rules, with each group you play with. Argh....im so bored with life.

I'm looking at the entire world in greyscale format. There's not a single ounce of color left in me. I mean it literally, with my wardrobe life being all black and dull, i see no joy in dressing up. The brightest i could go was lime green, and light blue. What's there to look forward to, when you're so restricted?

Restricted by rules and customs that's invented by some chinese guy. HE probably is one selfish shit that decides so rules that his family has to abide by, when he dies. One other monkey sees it, gets inspired too, and decides that it's a fair and grand thing to do when he dies, so he dictates his family do exactly the same thing, after his passing away.... that's probably how customs and traditions starts.... an inventor, and his bunch of monkeys! I feel emotionally drained by all the customs. Im looking at everything in a new perspective, the uglier side of life.

I feel as though as i've been cheated off my most prized possesion..happiness and contentment. i know that im smiling alot lesser, i have lousy tolerance to many things, and my patience with life is waning, with life, with friends, with the world.

Most Singaporeans have always been monkeys what. You know, when i say monkeys, im referring to the the phrase "monkey see, monkey do" alright. Take bread talk and pork floss bun for example. One monkey say nice, other monkeys queue up to try. Tell them about some spring in the ulu part of Singapore, and you'll see many people attempting to visit the spring. Most would flock from one place to another, the minute they hear news from their friends about some delicious food, fre gifts or whatever you can think of thing.

Stupidest thing would be to place a piece of tissue paper on a chair, to proclaim that the seat, (this particular one that you've placed your tissue on) at the hawker center is occupied by you. It's such a stupid thing to do, and you sure can't be pissed about it, if you return back to the seat with your delicious food, only to find someone sitting on the seat that you've happily covered with the tissue. Frankly, people would have no clue diffreentiating between signs that says: " the seat is already taken, go look somewhere else", and "the tissue was placed on the chair because the tissue floated away and landed on the chair" or some hygiene purpose what. You might as well settle for a post it note, saying :"RESERVED, and you sign your name" i bet it's gonna look classier, and there's be less argument about it.

Then there's the MRT scenario. What's the point in drawing all the silly lines and arrows at the entrance of the train, when people don't adhere or even bother about it? Most would just stand and push their way into the train. Stupid ain't it? If people can't step out of the train, what makes these smarty asses think that they'll be able to squeeze in, at rush hours?
It proves my case about Singaporeans not being very smart. They're great at mimicking what others do, without even thinking about what actually make sense.
Guess the worst of the lot would be the well educated ones, holding degrees, PHD, doing all these ugly acts. Urgh! such a turn off! Whatever happened to a refined society?

It's a cheapskate and i don't wanna lose out mentality, and it's awful. Im not proud of the kiasu-ism in SIngapore. Worst part is when you're overseas, and you see the bad monkey behaviour! It's such a shame to proclaim loudly that it's 100% us! It's defintely not a an attraction, for tourist to visit Singapore to gawk at!

Simple things like couteousy and toilet hygiene needs to be taught through national campaign over various forms of media! Aren't you all, who claim to be adults ashamed of yourself?
It's ugly and stupid mentality as such that pisses me off. The world's already in such bad condition on it's own with global warming and pollution to worry about, and there's human behaviour to make things worst! It's so silly and stupid, it becomes a vicious cycle! It's pathetic.

I'm disappointed with people, and everything depresses me. The weather, the politics, the transport system, the school, and the people that i see everyday. I feel baloney reaching it's peak at the moment, and it'll be much worst when you start to work. The corporate world is vicious, plotting, and scheming.

Whatever happened to the world, where everything was once just simple, pure, innocent, and full of love? I can't help seeing everything in shades of grey recently. It's as if im placed in this tinted world or tinted glasses, where all that i ever see, is the uglyness of mankind. Everything's getting intolerable. I find it a waste of time to talk to friends, coz you'll never know what they're actually thinking in their mind, despite their smiling faces--> you know being hypocrites, it's a total waste of time, and doing activities with your loved ones might just turn out to be an obligation that they have to fulfill.

It's as though as you're some plague, or suffering from a terminal illness. When people see you, they no longer are interested in what you have to offer anymore, they try to shun you, or provide weird reasons not to meet up, cause they believe they have better things to do than to meet up with their dear old friend, truly because Boyfriends have longed ruled over their world. Either that or they disappear from your world.......

The subjects that you broach, aren't interesting, and people will change into a subject that they deem interesting, even if it's just stupid stuff like collecting hello kitty magnets and they totally go into a one person conversation, ranting on and on about how many she's collected already, and she's left with a few missing magnets.....and totally ignore you. You might get screamed at, for one slight action like winding down the mirror of the car, when the window's still wet. Cause it'll leave streaks on the windows when it dries up.

It doesn't make sense to me. Yet people deem these silly instances as important priorities in their live? WHatever happened to the other party's feelings? Are magnets and windows more important than friendship, such that you can compromise friendship over a window? It's stupid, and disappointing. Disappointing, cause it ruins what good image that i have of my loved ones, it crushes me badly to know where i stand in their lives.

To sleep forever like sleeping beauty, til one day the world gets better seems like a nice route to escape from all the uglies!
But no!@ Shutting myself in the room ain't gonna help me escape reality. I'll still gotta get out of the house to face the freaking world. Gotta battle comstantly with stupid driving instructors over at BBDC, attempt to pass my exams this semester, please the parents, please the friends,
please the boyfriend, feed and clean up after the pig, and clean up the room.
Life can't be anything more meaningless than what i'm feeling now..

Maybe i'm purely senstive, or it's just all due to being Pre-Menstral, that's sparked off my imagination, I wouldnt comment too much i guess.......

i hate living in this dark world all alone...
But for the time being, just leave me alone... losing touch with the world seems appealing, just like a hermit crab.

any comments on this will purely be deemed as hypocritical. To avoid being blacklisted by daphne.. choose the wise route..... just pretend you've never read this entry alright? *wink*