Stifled

Stifled.
That's how I am feeling today (mostly).
The most glorious part of Tuesday, would have to be me lying down on the bed, with the facial therapist fixing my face.

I actually fell asleep for a while in there, since it was pitch black with the mask covering everything up and I couldn't peep around and spy (haha).

The rest of the day was slightly annoying ~ I'm blaming my OCD quirks on it.
Fashion eyesore - its not my problem right, so why does it affect me so much to look at ugly stuff?
Facial session overran by an hour, and I roamed around town without proper make up, luckily Claud saved me with her stash.
I found out that the facial lady over plucked my eyebrows, and I look constantly surprised now. Grr..
I would also have preferred to have the time to go home, shower, change and make up.
Instead of roaming around with overly greasy face, haphazard make up, greasy limbs from the massage, and bad hair day from the facial bed and flats.

The new dress I ordered also appeared in the post today, and I look as if I'm drowning in the oversized dress.
one of those 货不对版 situation.
Looks bloody gorgeous on the model, and absolutely retarded when I put it on.

*deep breathe*

Also feeling under accomplished today, even though I ate Sushi + sashimi 3 out of 4 days this week.
Rwarrrrr! What exactly is wrong with me?

Too stifled to sleep it off.
Not in the mood for supper.
Yucks. I hate the pent up feeling stuck in the guts.

It's rare for me to complain here, but tonight, I reckon it is necessary to write it out here for sanity.

Lalang, ping pongs and leeches.

Personality traits. 

It's often something that is hard to describe, but yet something so alluring that pulls u in, or adversely, traits that you detest in humans in general. 

Traits can be defined as habitual patterns of behavior, thoughts and emotion, and are relatively stable over time, differing from various individuals. ~ source Wikipedia 

A conversation recently put me through a train of thoughts, and I just made up a mental list of personality traits that I do not respect, and do my utmost to seive these people from my life. 

Aside from the usually dishonesty traits such as lying, stealing politicking, there is really one trait that really "brings the best out of me". 

There's a Chinese phase for it. 

优柔寡断 

I googled the meaning, and it's defined as faltering, fickle, hesitant, indecisive, of two minds, uncertain, wavering. 

In other words, these are time wasters. 

And time wasters, rarely make it big in life.

Why so cruel and why so sure, you may ask. 

Well, it is because their brain is like a fucking ping pong. 

Bounce here, bounce there, and they have no freaking clue where their end destination is, until the ball momentum stops. 

If you leave your life to fate and divination and not take action to seize control of it, might I ask in return: 

How can anyone respect people who sits on the fence?

How can anyone depend on them to cover your back when you need them? 

Would you stake on your vote/money/life on these people? 

These aren't leaders. 

These aren't loyal supporters. 

These are leeches who suck where the blood is aplenty, and crawl off when the blood thins. 

And they are usually alone.

The Lalang plant that sways where the wind blows, and bends where there is "advantage" for them to profit. 

Never having the resolute to stand firm on their toes. 

And in my words, people with this wavering traits, are the scariest to surround yourself with. 

Perhaps if nicely put, it's a survival trait, but to survive based on such inconsistent values, why even be proud to be alive?

For one can be certain where your enemy stands, and what they are fighting for, but you do not know where these ping pongs balls will roll to and under what circumstances will they abandon you, or worst betray you when you are weak.

Scary indeed? 

It's like the movie 300. 

Live your life gloriously, and die when you have to. Like the Spartans in exchange for something that they believe to protect.

Not like that goelum looking creature that betrays. Wavering, swaying where the wind blows because he cannot bear to be alone with no one to surround him.

There's nothing wrong with being opinionated and outspoken about it. 

It might sound harsh to fight a cause alone, or in minor quantity. 

But at least you stand up for something you believe in, and people will gravitate towards your cause. 

Like attracts like

For example; Trees have roots. 

The deeper the roots, the better to hold against a mighty storm. 

It also shelters people from harsh weathers, and provides home to living creatures. 

The tree may stand alone, but the little birds, butterflies, caterpillar, ferns mushroom, snakes gravitate towards the tree for shelter, for food, for support.

That's how one should live their life. 

Stand tall, stand proud, and stand up for your values, as long as you think it's right.

#randomwisdomoftheday. 

#daphnesays

Excitement

When was the last time you anticipate about something that you can't seem to fall asleep?

Ahhhhhhhh 

Looking forward. 

Excited 3000! ;)