Wednesday, November 28, 2012

South East Asia Aquarium - Resorts World Sentoa

Headed over to the newly opened South East Asia (SEA) Aquarium today, and had a lovely day!

This was what greeted me, when I entered the place.
Hugeass Chinese looking ship!
Rwar!


The other side of the junk ship reminded me alot of Noah's ark. Heheheh.
I wasn't expecting this, actually.


Enough of the touristy talk, and back to the aquarium.
Ima a happy mermaid when I saw this. It felt like I was back home!
Just look at all the layers a mermaid could perch on, when idling!
Pretty or what?

I took tons of pictures today, and these are just a few of my favourites.
Sharing them in no particularly order. 
Everything shown here, is fully taken by the iphone 4s, and edited with photoapps.
Here we go!

I found this one extremely blissful.
It's actually 2 different school of fishes swimming in harmony.
The bubble looking school is made up of really tiny fishes.
The picture does no justice to this, so I actually took a video of the entire hugeass aquarium.
I spent the longest time there, just absorbing the serenity (Minus those stupid yelling kids, it'll have been totally perfect)
I'll load up the video another day, it's a patience testing thing (youtube loading)
It's very much similar to the video I've posted here back in november 18 2010.


Did I mention that this aquarium is mother big! Probably the size of a football stadium or larger!

This is my favourite giant fish.
I named him Dumbo. 
He gives me the weirdest silliest stares whenever he swims past me.


This is Mr giant fish. Look how huge he is, next to us humans.
He's taller and fatter than me physically. 
Wow wee.
There were leopard sharks, leopard stingrays etc and I seriously tried to capture a good shot of them. But they'll come in later from the other camera. 
But looking at the way i'm procastinating...anything that comes from the real camera, probably would never surface.
Hahaha.
Ok, back to the Fishplayground!


Now that i'm done gawking about the sheer size of the hugeass fish playground, let me start prattling on the pretty subtanks that I visited.
I am in love with this coral reef garden.
The pastel colors is just amazing.
I want to be a mermaid sometime please!
Sit on an oyster shell, wear some pearls and scallops, and just idle around looking pretty with my pet starfish and crab. 

I have no idea what the Seahorsey is doing.
Cute little fella looks like he's smooching the rocks.
But actually most of them were clinging onto the coral with their tails, so that they will not drift away.
How annoying!

After many tanks later, this was the only starfish I met.
I thought to myself, Oh dear! Skinny and unimpressive he is, but I should capture a proper picture of this lad though. 
Starfish seems to be an unlikely resident here.
Poor anorexic starfish.
Blah..

Next thing I know, I met the real deal!
Look at how fat this squiggly thingie is!
Now, this is what starfishes should look like!

It's also a petting tank.

The starkeeper told me to stroke the fella gently, and the silly little thing curled itself up rather cutely in response to my touch!
Starkeeper says that it likes me.
Yay!
#NaturalStarfishCharmer
See I told you they're gonna be my water pets, if I'm ever going to be a mermaid.


More coral looking things.
The colors and settings is soooooo pretty. 
I couldn't resist.

I was taking a picture of the tank when I captured this and thought to myself.
Huh...what fish is that?!
Sheesh! It's a float-away-brush. It surfaced for some air shortly, about 5 seconds after this picture.
This shot is 95% good luck and 5% quick reaction.
Epic to see a brush floating by for display.
Hahahha.

Oh in case you were wondering, the fishes thought it was something munch worthy.

Another pretty coral setting.
You know just before you catch a movie, there is the THX sound test with lots of metallic looking plants?
This one is probably the underwater version, if there ever was one. 



More corals. I'm in love with them!
I'm ok about the fishes. but corals are like Wow! Wee!
People go in there to look at fishes, and there I am gazing at the fish's landscapes.
#nutcase

I just like how gorgeous it looks, with tiny little pearls or babys breathe embedded on the surface swaying to the rhythm of the ocean.



This, reminds me of Dim Sum.
Braised Chicken / phoenix foot, sticking out in all directions.
New presentation perhaps?


Ok! Some fishes.
But it was the sea urchins that fascinated me.
They look violently cute, sitting in the tank.
Like some vandalized punk sort of fish tank.


You get what I mean right?
If you don't, it's fine. Just appreciate the pictorial whatever then.



Last one of the urchin.
Looks so cute together with the black starfish.
I'm not sure what the both of them are doing, but being so black and punk. they look illegally cute sitting in a corner, with black sand and all.


Mom: Timmy! Stop digging your nose!
Timmy: I dont care mom! It's my nose, I shall dig all I like.

Meet Timmy the nose digging crab.
I decided that Timmy seems like a suitable nose digging name. (No offence) 

There's act cute Daphne, attempting to take a picture with the giant fishes.
Guess what?
Nothing showed up. 
Rwar!

Sea Jellies.
While staring at them, I kept thinking of a nice cup of dessert made of sea jellies.
Imagine my bubble tea order underwater...
milk tea please, with sea jellies, and 50% sugar.
Thank you.


The sea jellies seriously reminds me of a mangosteen.



-- Ok the end for now --


Ps: In case you're wondering. 
It took me about 5 hours to wander around leisurely, sit at the little water dome area to enjoy the mother huge aquarium, immersing myself into a make believe world of peace and bliss.

A short tea break, no toilet breaks, and no, the highly controversial and "hated" dolphins aren't ready for viewing yet.

I like it that it's rather empty today.


















Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Bus Strike

I seriously wasn't aware of the Bus strike occurrence, until 5 minutes ago.
I know i'm uber ignorant for a Singaporean.

Anyway, I was reading Mr Brown's entry on alternate names for a Bus Driver Strike, and I found it hilarious.
Lifting it off wholesale just for shares and a good laugh!
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Since the mainstream media seems very reluctant to call a strike a strike, I asked my Twitter followers for alternative names to call a #busstrike:
1. @mrbrown: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Mass MC.
2. @mrbrown: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Unhappy Gathering.
3. @mrbrown: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Co-ordinated Smoke Break.
4. @J2meePok: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Cohesion Day.
5. @kr0nz: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: 歇一会儿.
6. @josephgohkk: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Unusual downtime.
7. @jackiegay: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Comprain Walkabout.
8. @cloudywind: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Service closed due to company function.
9. @cloudywind: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Department Off-site Training.
10. @perrierlemon101: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Disgruntled Sit-In.
11. @kr0nz: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Service Disruption.
12. @hayat_shah: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Income Opportunity.
13. @kr0nz: Alternative names for a Singapore #busstrike: Feedback Session.
14. @Daniyyel7795: Alternative names for a Singapore #busstrike: Extended coffee break.
15. @Janitor_Madao: Alternative names for a Singapore #busstrike: The National Bus Drivers Conversation
16.@alvinkaws: Alternative names for a Singapore #busstrike: Flash Mob
17. @mrbrown: Alternative names for SMRT #busstrike: Unscheduled Maintenance.
You know what SMRT can do to fix this bus strike? Cable ties.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Pasta mania delivery

Staggered home, crashed in bed and skipped dinner.

Contemplated skipping dinner, but I'm one the verge of gastric attack the past few days.
Can't wing it, so....
Here I am, attempting pasta mania delivery for the first time ever, and eating my dinner at 3 in the morning.
Creamy chicken pasta is too heavy for someone who just woke up.

*struggles*

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Make up hauls

I realized that I am alot more excitable about Black Friday 2012, as compared to 2011's.
Looking at my previous post It's almost as if i'm Bi-polar!

I didnt buy as much as I've anticipated.
Would have love to camp at home in the comfort of my pajammies, hiding from the cold pouring rain and all. But nope!

Busy busy busy!
Braved the rain, went out and saved the wallet!
I ended up buying stuff from Luxola because they were on 30% discount, and a couple of dresses on threadtheory - their clearance stuff happened to be the stuff I didn't mind buying from a long time ago, other wise, i'll usually not harp too much on clearance clothes (on account of sizing and color availability issues)

Since the start of Autumn/fall, I've sort of lost interest in clothes, and have been focusing on the face.
Buying up stuff like face mask, special miracle creams and now Make up palettes!

I've been contemplating about Urban Decay's NAKED PALETTE 1 for the longest time
But the last time I wanted to purchase it, Sephora was totally out of stock.
Just look at it!


So pretty! Velvet cover with gold prints.
It reminds me of a box of chocolate!
Opening up to look at the hues of brown doesn't help much either!
Rwar!



However, I settled for Too Faced's Naked eyes from Sephora instead.
Good thing is, their packaging is pretty irresistible as well. But the naked eye palette is completely naked, if you asked me, nothing like what the NAKED PALETTE would produce for the siren smoky eyes look
(well it would not make sense to buy 2 palettes for the same purpose right?)

So I thought I would purchase this set for my day look, and the NAKED PALETTE for the night look when the new stock arrives.
Well, I've never gotten about to buying it.
Hahah.

A year later, After gouging a hole off the Naked eyes palette, I decided that it's about time I embark on the pursuit of the naked palette again.

Here's how my naked eyes look before I started using them. :D




My personal favourite would be "Like a virgin".
I use it to create my daytime "smoky" look eyes, and the "birthday suit" is for the literally naked eye look, with just a layer of shimmer over the eyes.
I call them my daily staples.
It's autopilot application for me with this palette.
I realized that my make up techniques varies on the products that I'm using, so for as long as the Naked eye would exist as my favorite, I'm going to look the same every single day.
Wahahaha.

Ok back to the palette "In the buff" is a matte white color, and "pink cheeks" is a powery nude shade of pink good for highlighting purposes for the nose and cheeks on days where I feel vainer, and "satin sheets" is a golden rose tinge of shimmer that I mostly use of the inner corner of my eyes, because it makes me look yellower than I really need to if I use it wholesale without blending.

"Stiletto" is a matte shade of black, while "Lap Dance" is a shimmery shade of greyish purple. I would usually pair these 2 together for my night look, and occasionally dabble with "Unmentionables" a shade of semi matte gun metal grey just to work a dirtier look for a change.

I'll usually lug this set along with me, whenever I travel, just because it's versatile enough to bring me from day to night!

I'll do swatches another day for this, together with the new Sleek palettes, just for comparison sake ok!

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I spoke to my 2 main make up gurus Audrey and Valda, and they gave me mixed reviews about the NAKED PALETTE.
Sure, we all love it, but when you look at the price and do a comparison with other available options....
It might not be quite the case.
Well, I was lucky that the day I met Valda, it was after her make up assignment.
She had this luggage full of makeup loots for me to check out for curiosity's sake!

Her top recommendation to me, would be Sleek's range.
High pigment, sleek packaging, blends really well and most importantly, it doesn't cake.
I dabbled with her eyeshadow palette, headed over to Sephora to test out the Naked Palette from Urban Decay, and decided that perhaps the Naked Palette is overated.

Okay, I admit that I'm still highly attracted to their very pretty packaging of rich velvet brown exterior casing, and the multitude of brown hues that reminds me of how yummy chocolates could be!
but! but! but!

I'm a good girl.
I bought like 4 items (with the help of the black friday deals) from Luxola, and still managed to beat the price of the NAKED PALETTE's retailling price.
It's such a steal, how can anyone resist? (I'm also very very glad that my pile of work has indirectly averted my attempts at the purchases )
Woo~

I was so excited, I actually called Valda to ask her if she's buying anything from the Black Friday sale.
Lol. She wasn't quite as excited, since her new purchases were just days before the Black Friday sale.
Oh well.


I'm pleased for sure!
Palette colors are supposed to look like this!
Sleek's Sunset palette looks mightily exciting!
I'm hoping that it would be my alternative to a more colourful day look, and definitely very useful for the approaching spring summer. My 2 favourite seasons of the year!


There's the Sleek Au Natural palette to reduce my Naked Palette itch. 
These look yummy enough too, for a fraction of the price.
Lalala..
I've just got to wait for Wednesday for my new toys to arrive. 
Can't wait!



Signing off now for the comforts of the bed.

xo,
Daphne the face paint lover.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

New toy!






Went to Bugis (again) today to get costumes for coming event, and to find excuses to buy stuff!

Today's special would be my ribbit (ribbon+rabbit, geddit?) hair band.
I bought one in Navy and another in Maroon Red!
I liked it so much that I wore it immediately!

Claud says that my ribbit hairband attracted an insane number of stares, with the most envious stare award going to a 5 year old girl, who just had that "mommy! I want that" look.
Oops!

Okay.
*sniggers*

It's okay to act like a kid whenever the mood strikes a fancy.
On days that I have to dress my real age in too many days in a row, my mood would take a pendulum dip.
Looking stuffy and boring kills me. 

If there's anything that I really learnt after all these years, 
what matters most is what makes me happy!

Therefore, I dress to please (myself), and I guess that's where my magic lies.


*On a side note, I have no idea why my face seems to be gaining some pounds.
Fat cheeks is back? :(

xoxo
Waaaaay Overgrown kid

Monday, November 19, 2012

Empty Promises

I hate people who go against their promises.
If its going to be today. It'd better be today.
Not tomorrow or the day after, or the year after or whatever crap shit you can think of.

It's like a bad credit system that accumulates.

I'm never going to trust you again.
Please go away.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Dumb Ways to Die song

I saw this in my timeline on FB.
The song's called dumb ways to die!
The animation is soooooo cute!




It's kinda morbid, but my personal favourites will be
#11 the outerspace  dumbo
#12 clothes dryer hiding dumbo
# 14 Kidney seller dumbo
#15 Super glue dumbo

#le sigh

Listen to your heart





Filter out what the world wants from you.
Listen to what that voice within you is screaming to tell you.

Only when you learn to break away from the cycle, can you watch the charades of the world and rediscover your purpose in this universe.

I truly seek peace and happiness for one and for all.

So listen to your heart, when its calling for you.


XO
Daphne the Alien

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

New Transformer bag!

Guess who's gotten herself a new "transformer" 3 way bag?
picture credits goes to the shaky hands Mommy.

My bag works like a haversack, a sling bag, or just a side sling.
Rwar!

Bagbag! I finally found you after many months!
( I saw the original design online in some bag spree but hated the ugly zipper trims that came along with it)
If I haven't ranted before about my pet peeve...
I really detest cheapo looking trims. like some bear or special heart shaped looking thing to pass off as a zipper head, or gawdy button just to look "special".
I have default look of disgust whenever I spot one of them.

Love the price point, but hate their love for shitty ugly details.
It might be small, but i hate ugly zippers and buttons and friends.

So ima happy with the new bag with normal zippers!


New bag from Charles & Keith
Gold buttoned white shorts from Mango
Gold lurex cardigan from Esprit
Babydoll flare white top from South Haven

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Random Daphne

I spent the entire Monday achieving nothing.
It's my unofficial self declared off day, and the longest duration I was awake for, was probably lunch time.

Sleep

Check email

Sleep

Lets Trixie out, laughed about food jokes, checked phones, emails and
orders Dominos Pizza ( I learn that if you order your food online, you get more food.
They gave me a box of onion rings for free. Oh Joy!)

Naps

Wakes up to receive pizza
Munch

Goes into sleep coma

Wakes up for dinner

Continues sleep coma
and now i'm up.

Like WIDE awake.

Now that i am wide awake, I'm not even sure why i am so tired anymore.
While asleep I dreamt about halloween, I was all dressed up in a vintage corpse bride outfit.
My mom went along for the party with a few friends/relatives/cousins. We got bored and we went to the supermarket (yeah still in my corpse bride outfit)
Returned back to my grandaunt's house to realize that there was a zombies attack!

I was super coward and hid in the car, while my mom went to fight them (wha..that's super brave of her), there were random friends and relative that I couldnt put a name to in my dream.

Warped dreams, puzzling and extremely illogical to decipher.

I'm now stuck between wanting to head out for some cakes and drinks, or to fall back asleep.
If only starbucks of coffeebean delivers, decision making would be darn easy!
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On other news, my brain's learning curve seems to be surging.
I've never. Never written so much chinese in my life, save for all the compositions I was forced to submit back in school, and what i've written, over the past few months.

I 'm on QQ mobile when i'm out, and they usually type in Chinese to me, while I'll push my luck and reply in English.

I realize that multitasking skills does not apply when i'm on Chinese typing mode.
I cannot walk, cross road, eat, talk, shop, while i'm typing chinese. I need to drop what I'm doing, stand still, then type what I need to write, before I pick up everything and continue with life.


When I reply email in chinese, it usually takes me hours to accomplish a simple email.
No i'm not dating a chinese man for christ sake!
I'm just tracking the progress of my designer and giving approvals!

Seriously, for the potato that most people expect me to be, my chinese really isn't too bad at all!
It just requires some time for me to channel the inner 华文 goddess from within.

And when it gets tough... I get creative!

Over a seafood dinner in china.
I wanted scallops and I could not remember what they were called.
So I said "erm.. you know...the shellfish commonly depicted as Little mermaid's bikini..what's that called?"

Well she laughed and got what I was referring to.
Easy peasy. :D

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The next random statement that is still ringing in my head would be a recent conversation between old friends that I've recently met.

I've been told that I've got a mind of my own.

Errps.

I'm not sure why it felt like an alien statement to me, to the point that i'm still pondering over it.


Yes, I am an opinionated girl.

Perhaps I've been raised to be one.
Perhaps innately I am one
Perhaps I want to be one, therefore I am constantly surrounded with people of similar frequencies..


Would life be different if I was raised a meek girl, instead of being such a hard personality?
Haha.

This i'll ponder over, and update another day...
And head back to bed.
I'll muster the courage to clobber up some zombies!

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Skin toys!

I've been paying alittle more attention to my skin lately.
bought like an insane amount of "supplements" for my skin, all picked up from Watsons or Sasa. 
In my world, they are called my new toys for the skin.
Perhaps you could say that Autumn and Winter clothes shopping hardly ever excite me, therefore I've shifted my attention to skin food instead!

Clockwise from Left to Right: There's the LEADERS gel eyemask and face mask - I seriously like the texture of their mask! , My beauty diary Arbutin face mask which made my face pale like a vampiress for a couple of hours, B.liv's off with those head serum for black heads (they're working hard to melt away my blackheads as I type this) , Loreal's youth code for the eyes (because the youth code for the skin did a pretty decent job at the moment, so I decided to try the eye version as well...)

The miraculous 2 step mask from my beauty Diary that I was raving about from my previous Cheng Du trip, I bought them all from the China Watsons, only to discover them at SASA Singapore. 
Blah.. 
It was 35RMB for 4 packs, so I chose an assortment, just for variety's sake!



Next there's also some major love from Valda with the Lancome goodies!
I must have done something good, to deserve all this Lancome love.

Either that or God must have decided that my face is in some dire need of maintenance from being too lazy, and sent these goodies through Valda.
Hahahha.

Before Valda introduced the Hydra Zen moisturizer to me, I was living off various testers I got off the counter. I'm currently on Jar #2 of my Hydra Zen (yeah, after like 8 months..)
I've been told that most people would "consume" their moisturiser within 3 months (if used day and night) or 6 months (if specifically for day, or night only)
i'm 2 months off the average consistency in skin maintenance.
#oops
#BadDaphne

This is proof that I emptied the first jar!
Adi hand carried my second jar back from the airport, just because I told him that DFS's price is like $40 cheaper (I wondered to myself why I didn't buy it myself, when I exited the plane). 
Nevermind.. the bestie accomplished what my brain couldn't registered back at the airport.


   
Back to my Lancome Hydra Zen Moisturizer,  I've been introduced to the Hydra Zen Neocalm gel
Valda told me that the entire Lancome Hydra zen series is pretty good for sensitive skin, and I've got nothing to complain about to date.

I like how it is being absorbed into my skin rather easily, without giving me a thick greasy feeling after application. 
The face doesn't shine too much either. ( But 12hours later, it usually another story for most people! )




I'm done with beauty raves.
Let's head back to the frivolous wonders in life.
My kitty ears pullover hat from H&M.
Can't wait to wear them out to weather appropriate countries, therefore these pictures would suffice for now.
Winter soon please!






New ballerina flats in gold from Covet.
They were on sale! 
I'm now terrified to scar the shoes, whenever I wear them. Which makes walking difficult and a paranoia experience for me.



The doggles & I, on a random night!

Oh and I have scumbag eyerings/eyebags.
This picture makes them super obvious.




Fake shorthair for the day when I went out for lunch with X


Ok the end.
Got to bounce back to vetting through 2013 Spring Summer stuff.
I'll be back!
Soon enough (at least)
Lelelelelelelellelelel

Monday, November 05, 2012

Some well deserved sleep!





Laying in bed and thinking about the week that just flew by, i'll say that it's been a good weekend for me on hind sight. Despite the hectic work schedules and hiccups involved.

I'm super thankful that we survived the grueling work week and also managed to brave some very terrible stormy weather over the past few days,.

Ima catch some proper deserved sleep now and im gonna wake up feeling human.

*throws confetti and celebrates*

Saturday, November 03, 2012

Hey, Hi! Woof!



Woo~ it's Trixie Kitty Lee.
I was greeted by a terribly mangly tangly looking creature in the guise of Trixie when I set foot back home from the airport!

I spent some of my spare time, the past couple of days.
Attempting to detangle her coat of messy fur, and this is the end result!
Still extremely terribly yucky looking, but awesomely cute in my Kitty specs!

It's funny how her eyes looks extremely gorgeous hidden behind the glasses.
Awww my silly fur baby.

Trixie's been going about without a bath for slightly over 2 weeks, smelling like a Zoo!
I wanted to feed her today and realized that there's no more food for her.
Her daily meals was rudely disrupted, and I had to trek over to the Village to get her some from the petstore - as it was way too late to order delivery!

Poor neglected Trixie!
I'm trying my best to erm....make it up to her, like a guilty human should.
More treats, bigger portion of food, and more meals.

So far so good, but she's still looking like a bag of bones.
Skinny air at home maybe?
Hahaha.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Reevaluating your priorities in life - Richard Teo

I was taking a break from luggage packing when I stumbled upon this video shared by a friend.
No doubt it's a pretty long video, and an even longer transcript that I read later.

I dont know Richard Teo personally, but the contents that he raised and shared, had spoken to me and felt all familiar to me, as I listened to what Richard shared.
From a self made millionaire doctor achieved in probably a span of 40 years, to a god fearing man in a matter of months.
His pursuits in material wants, and eventually finding out the real priorities important in life before he departed is truly humbling.

I'm not a christian, and I may not be as successful as he is.
But having personally gone through some low point a couple of years back, I literally took a year off from life just to reevaluate my priorities and realign my life.

Indeed I am thankful to even be allowed the opportunity and assistance to just mope around, while I seek answers to all the questions that were screaming and swirling in my head constantly.

In difficult times, I met hands that were stretched out to me in hope to lift me out from where I was, as well as the hands that attempted to push me deeper and further down as I struggle to breathe
I saw them all clearly.

It was all a horrible experience that I never want to go through again, but yet without that rough patch, I would not have the chance to take my entire life apart, and piece them back again bit by bit at my own pace.
Re-emerging from where I last left my life, as a new and improved Daphne.

In the new Daphne OS,  some old values has been reinforced to stay, while some new ones have been added from recent lessons learnt. The purpose and existence of Daphne has been re anchored and aligned to better contribute to the world, this universe, in my own little ways.

Therefore, I can attest to 10% of what he had gone through to want to share this with whoever you might be.
It is indeed a lengthy read / video but it's truly a humbling lesson that my own words alone couldn't have described better.

I'll end this entry with a phrase lifted off his transcript, in reference to the book Tuesdays with Morris.

Everyone knows that they are going to die; every one of us knows that. 
The truth is, none of us believe it because if we did, we will do things differently.

The link of his video can be found here: http://youtube/n6oSDyMUigQ
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Below is the transcript of the talk of Dr. Richard Teo, who is a 40-year-old millionaire and cosmetic surgeon with a stage-4 lung cancer but selflessly came to share with the D1 class his life experience on 19-Jan-2012.

Hi good morning to all of you. My voice is a bit hoarse, so please bear with me. I thought I'll just introduce myself. My name is Richard, I'm a medical doctor. And I thought I'll

 just share some thoughts of my life. It's my pleasure to be invited by prof. Hopefully, it can get you thinking about how... as you pursue this.. embarking on your training to become dental surgeons, to think about other things as well.

Since young, I am a typical product of today's society. Relatively successful product that society requires.. From young, I came from a below average family. I was told by the media... and people around me that happiness is about success. And that success is about being wealthy. With this mind-set, I've always be extremely competitive, since I was young.

Not only do I need to go to the top school, I need to have success in all fields. Uniform groups, track, everything. I needed to get trophies, needed to be successful, I needed to have colours award, national colours award, everything. So I was highly competitive since young. I went on to medical school, graduated as a doctor. Some of you may know that within the medical faculty, ophthalmology is one of the most highly sought after specialities. So I went after that as well. I was given a traineeship in ophthalmology, I was also given a research scholarship by NUS to develop lasers to treat the eye.

So in the process, I was given 2 patents, one for the medical devices, and another for the lasers. And you know what, all this academic achievements did not bring me any wealth. So once I completed my bond with MOH, I decided that this is taking too long, the training in eye surgery is just taking too long. And there's lots of money to be made in the private sector. If you're aware, in the last few years, there is this rise in aesthetic medicine. Tons of money to be made there. So I decided, well, enough of staying in institution, it's time to leave. So I quit my training halfway and I went on to set up my aesthetic clinic... in town, together with a day surgery centre.

You know the irony is that people do not make heroes out average GP (general practitioner), family physicians. They don't. They make heroes out of people who are rich and famous. People who are not happy to pay $20 to see a GP, the same person have no qualms paying ten thousand dollars for a liposuction, 15 thousand dollars for a breast augmentation, and so on and so forth. So it's a no brainer isn't? Why do you want to be a gp? Become an aesthetic physician. So instead of healing the sick and ill, I decided that I'll become a glorified beautician. So, business was good, very good. It started off with waiting of one week, then became 3weeks, then one month, then 2 months, then 3 months. I was overwhelmed; there were just too many patients. Vanities are fantastic business. I employed one doctor, the second doctor, the 3rd doctor, the 4th doctor. And within the 1st year, we're already raking in millions. Just the 1st year. But never is enough because I was so obsessed with it. I started to expand into Indonesia to get all the rich Indonesian tai-tais who wouldn't blink an eye to have a procedure done. So life was really good.

So what do I do with the spare cash. How do I spend my weekends? Typically, I'll have car club gatherings. I take out my track car, with spare cash I got myself a track car. We have car club gatherings. We'll go up to Sepang in Malaysia. We'll go for car racing. And it was my life. With other spare cash, what do i do? I get myself a Ferrari. At that time, the 458 wasn't out, it's just a spider convertible, 430. This is a friend of mine, a schoolmate who is a forex trader, a banker. So he got a red one, he was wanting all along a red one, I was getting the silver one.

So what do I do after getting a car? It's time to buy a house, to build our own bungalows. So we go around looking for a land to build our own bungalows, we went around hunting. So how do i live my life? Well, we all think we have to mix around with the rich and famous. This is one of the Miss Universe. So we hang around with the beautiful, rich and famous. This by the way is an internet founder. So this is how we spend our lives, with dining and all the restaurants and Michelin Chefs you know.

So I reach a point in life that I got everything for my life. I was at the pinnacle of my career and all. That's me one year ago in the gym and I thought I was like, having everything under control and reaching the pinnacle.

Well, I was wrong. I didn't have everything under control. About last year March, I started to develop backache in the middle of nowhere. I thought maybe it was all the heavy squats I was doing. So I went to SGH, saw my classmate to do an MRI, to make sure it's not a slipped disc or anything. And that evening, he called me up and said that we found bone marrow replacement in your spine. I said, sorry what does that mean? I mean I know what it means, but I couldn't accept that. I was like “Are you serious?” I was still running around going to the gym you know. But we had more scans the next day, PET scans - positrons emission scans, they found that actually I have stage 4 terminal lung cancer. I was like "Whoa where did that come from?” It has already spread to the brain, the spine, the liver and the adrenals. And you know one moment I was there, totally thinking that I have everything under control, thinking that I've reached the pinnacle of my life. But the next moment, I have just lost it.

This is a CT scan of the lungs itself. If you look at it, every single dot there is a tumour. We call this miliaries tumour. And in fact, I have tens of thousands of them in the lungs. So, I was told that even with chemotherapy, that I'll have about 3-4months at most. Did my life come crushing on, of course it did, who wouldn't? I went into depression, of course, severe depression and I thought I had everything.

See the irony is that all these things that I have, the success, the trophies, my cars, my house and all. I thought that brought me happiness. But i was feeling really down, having severe depression. Having all these thoughts of my possessions, they brought me no joy. The thought of... You know, I can hug my Ferrari to sleep, no... No, it is not going to happen. It brought not a single comfort during my last ten months. And I thought they were, but they were not true happiness. But it wasn't. What really brought me joy in the last ten months was interaction with people, my loved ones, friends, people who genuinely care about me, they laugh and cry with me, and they are able to identify the pain and suffering I was going through. That brought joy to me, happiness. None of the things I have, all the possessions, and I thought those were supposed to bring me happiness. But it didn't, because if it did, I would have felt happy think about it, when I was feeling most down..

You know the classical Chinese New Year that is coming up. In the past, what do I do? Well, I will usually drive my flashy car to do my rounds, visit my relatives, to show it off to my friends. And I thought that was joy, you know. I thought that was really joy. But do you really think that my relatives and friends, whom some of them have difficulty trying to make ends meet, that will truly share the joy with me? Seeing me driving my flashy car and showing off to them? No, no way. They won’t be sharing joy with me. They were having problems trying to make ends meet, taking public transport. In fact i think, what I have done is more like you know, making them envious, jealous of all I have. In fact, sometimes even hatred.

Those are what we call objects of envy. I have them, I show them off to them and I feel it can fill my own pride and ego. That didn't bring any joy to these people, to my friends and relatives, and I thought they were real joy.

Well, let me just share another story with you. You know when I was about your age, I stayed in king Edward VII hall. I had this friend whom I thought was strange. Her name is Jennifer, we're still good friends. And as I walk along the path, she would, if she sees a snail, she would actually pick up the snail and put it along the grass patch. I was like why do you need to do that? Why dirty your hands? It’s just a snail. The truth is she could feel for the snail. The thought of being crushed to death is real to her, but to me it's just a snail. If you can't get out of the pathway of humans then you deserve to be crushed, it’s part of evolution isn't it? What an irony isn't it?

There I was being trained as a doctor, to be compassionate, to be able to empathise; but I couldn't. As a house officer, I graduated from medical school, posted to the oncology department at NUH. And, every day, every other day I witness death in the cancer department. When I see how they suffered, I see all the pain they went through. I see all the morphine they have to press every few minutes just to relieve their pain. I see them struggling with their oxygen breathing their last breath and all. But it was just a job. When I went to clinic every day, to the wards every day, take blood, give the medication but was the patient real to me? They weren't real to me. It was just a job, I do it, I get out of the ward, I can't wait to get home, I do my own stuff.

Was the pain, was the suffering the patients went through real? No. Of course I know all the medical terms to describe how they feel, all the suffering they went through. But in truth, I did not know how they feel, not until I became a patient. It is until now; I truly understand how they feel. And, if you ask me, would I have been a very different doctor if I were to re-live my life now, I can tell you yes I will. Because I truly understand how the patients feel now. And sometimes, you have to learn it the hard way.

Even as you start just your first year, and you embark this journey to become dental surgeons, let me just challenge you on two fronts.

Inevitably, all of you here will start to go into private practice. You will start to accumulate wealth. I can guarantee you. Just doing an implant can bring you thousands of dollars, it's fantastic money. And actually there is nothing wrong with being successful, with being rich or wealthy, absolutely nothing wrong. The only trouble is that a lot of us like myself couldn't handle it.

Why do I say that? Because when I start to accumulate, the more I have, the more I want. The more I wanted, the more obsessed I became. Like what I showed you earlier on, all I can was basically to get more possessions, to reach the pinnacle of what society did to us, of what society wants us to be. I became so obsessed that nothing else really mattered to me. Patients were just a source of income, and I tried to squeeze every single cent out of these patients.

A lot of times we forget, whom we are supposed to be serving. We become so lost that we serve nobody else but just ourselves. That was what happened to me. Whether it is in the medical, the dental fraternity, I can tell you, right now in the private practice, sometimes we just advise patients on treatment that is not indicated. Grey areas. And even though it is not necessary, we kind of advocate it. Even at this point, I know who are my friends and who genuinely cared for me and who are the ones who try to make money out of me by selling me "hope". We kind of lose our moral compass along the way. Because we just want to make money.

Worse, I can tell you, over the last few years, we bad mouth our fellow colleagues, our fellow competitors in the industry. We have no qualms about it. So if we can put them down to give ourselves an advantage, we do it. And that's what happening right now, medical, dental everywhere. My challenge to you is not to lose that moral compass. I learnt it the hard way, I hope you don't ever have to do it.

Secondly, a lot of us will start to get numb to our patients as we start to practise. Whether is it government hospitals, private practice, I can tell you when I was in the hospital, with stacks of patient folders, I can't wait to get rid of those folders as soon as possible; I can't wait to get patients out of my consultation room as soon as possible because there is just so many, and that's a reality. Because it becomes a job, a very routine job. And this is just part of it. Do I truly know how the patient feels back then? No, I don't. The fears and anxiety and all, do I truly understand what they are going through? I don't, not until when this happens to me and I think that is one of the biggest flaws in our system.

We’re being trained to be healthcare providers, professional, and all and yet we don't know how exactly they feel. I'm not asking you to get involved emotionally, I don't think that is professional but do we actually make a real effort to understand their pain and all? Most of us won’t, alright, I can assure you. So don't lose it, my challenge to you is to always be able to put yourself in your patient's shoes.

Because the pain, the anxiety, the fear are very real even though it's not real to you, it's real to them. So don't lose it and you know, right now I'm in the midst of my 5th cycle of my chemotherapy. I can tell you it’s a terrible feeling. Chemotherapy is one of those things that you don't wish even your enemies to go through because it's just suffering, lousy feeling, throwing out, you don't even know if you can retain your meals or not. Terrible feeling! And even with whatever little energy now I have, I try to reach out to other cancer patients because I truly understand what pain and suffering is like. But it's kind of little too late and too little.

You guys have a bright future ahead of you with all the resource and energy, so I’m going to challenge you to go beyond your immediate patients. To understand that there are people out there who are truly in pain, truly in hardship. Don’t get the idea that only poor people suffer. It is not true. A lot of these poor people do not have much in the first place, they are easily contented. for all you know they are happier than you and me but there are out there, people who are suffering mentally, physically, hardship, emotionally, financially and so on and so forth, and they are real. We choose to ignore them or we just don't want to know that they exist.

So do think about it alright, even as you go on to become professionals and dental surgeons and all. That you can reach out to these people who are in need. Whatever you do can make a large difference to them. I'm now at the receiving end so I know how it feels, someone who genuinely care for you, encourage and all. It makes a lot of difference to me. That’s what happens after treatment. I had a treatment recently, but I’ll leave this for another day. A lot of things happened along the way, that's why I am still able to talk to you today.

I'll just end of with this quote here, it's from this book called Tuesdays with Morris, and some of you may have read it. Everyone knows that they are going to die; every one of us knows that. The truth is, none of us believe it because if we did, we will do things differently. When I faced death, when I had to, I stripped myself off all stuff totally and I focused only on what is essential. The irony is that a lot of times, only when we learn how to die then we learn how to live. I know it sounds very morbid for this morning but it's the truth, this is what I’m going through.

Don’t let society tell you how to live. Don’t let the media tell you what you're supposed to do. Those things happened to me. And I led this life thinking that these are going to bring me happiness. I hope that you will think about it and decide for yourself how you want to live your own life. Not according to what other people tell you to do, and you have to decide whether you want to serve yourself, whether you are going to make a difference in somebody else's life. Because true happiness doesn't come from serving yourself. I thought it was but it didn't turn out that way. With that I thank you, if you have any questions you have for me, please feel free. Thank you.

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