Mom's gone for a last minute business trip over to lesotho, and will only be back on the wee hours of monday morning. I'm once again the undisputed queen of the house again! (fine..sharing it with sister, but being the older one gives me more responsibilities).
With Janson bunking over at the cousin's place...the house is definitely peaceful... in fact quiet.
The fact that even pix!e sense the peacefulness, it's scary. I had this little gut feeling that she's missing either janson or mommy, coz she sure ate very little food for the past few days, and she ain't as happy as she used to be.
pix!e's like this when i once placed her all alone at the balconey..she barely touched her food.. yet the minute i put her right smack at the dining room, where the buzzing activities are, she's happier, way active, hyper in fact, and she eats and drinks alot more. Funny huh....
This sweet little poo poo is such a darling!
Well, i'll find out who she misses later, when janson comes back. If she's happy and whistly and whinny, we'll know that it's the boy she misses.. If she's still sad and grumpy, then it might be mommy that she misses...but who knows, it might be because she's feeling grumpy for no plain reasons! hahahaha!
I've been so bored! Bored to the fact that i attempted neatening the room, clearing off the dusty places, repacking the rubbish that's lying all over the floor... creating more floor space to walk around in. Took me days to complete the neatening shit!
Rearranged some shelving units, repacked and resorted my accessories and cosmetic and all!
Cleared the wardrobe, and realised that even though the cupboard is really full ( to the extent that im basically hanging 2 pieces of similar stuff on the same hanger to free up space) , i've still concluded that i have nothing to wear! Do you know how sad it is, to be standing in front of the cupboard for nearly 30 mins everyday, racking ur brains on what to wear, before deciding on some boring pathetic outfit...to step out of the house?
Did online shopping, and i've just calculated that i've just spent slightly over a hundred just on e-shopping... erm it's abit ridiculous, but the items are just plain yummy. Besides, all my shopping khakis are busy at the moment, and Leonard's not a great fan of accomapying me on my shopping escapades. No time to do it in the day, i'll just leave it to my fingers to do the job. Sometimes, i think i prefer E-shopping much more than normal shopping. Except for disadvantages like no trying and there might be slight differences in colors...everything's cool man!
Just finished dinner and KTV at KBox with Leonard and his gang. Its quite a fun trip, and i met his friend Cheryl for the first time. Quite a cool lady with her Z4.
But i just don't understand what's with guys and Nice cars. They ditch all dignity and pride...and start drooling all over it.
Yeah, Basically, when guys start meeting up with their old friends, they regain their bonding session from where they last left it. Somehow, it doesn't take an einstein to realise how left out, and how much i was sticking out, coz i wasn't part of the group in the past.
Focus wasn't me of course, as they have alot of catching up to do, while i sat around stoning, or singing.
It wasn't a bad night, just quite a bit of screaming over the microphone..so im alittle sore in the throat right now.
Yeah im still restless and it's like there's this voidness in me, that i can't explain. Something that can't simply be filled by shopping, or stuffing yourself silly with yummy food. In fact, i'm starting to believe that nothing is ever gonna satisfy away the emptyness that im experiencing right now. It's most likely a sort of restlessness, nothing much i can do, coz i've yet to figure out what i really at this point in my life.
With Exams approaching, i think the main piority would be to start revising, making sure that im not gonna fail in both the subjects, if not, i think it'll be really screwed up. Seriously, if im gonna fail one more time, i'll just drop out from school and do something else on the over all. After all, studying has already proven to have bad effects on me.
But i'll try. I'll really have to pass, whether i like it or not. Yah but anyone who knows me well enough, would be able to see that im presently really unhappy with the way my life is on the overall. Whatever i am doing, is definitely not satisfying any personal acheievements that i desire. Cluesless is a good word.
Oh i am so sick and tired of complaining about the same thing everytime i blog. I need a solution. Like real fast, before i really sink and suffocate from this serious bout of depression. It's overwhelming me, just like a quicksand scenario. Bah. so helpless.
Alright... im looking forward to all that packages that are due to arrive in my mailbox within the next few days..boy oh boy! i ain't excited. But the new stuff will make a nice change to my wardrobe. Ha ha ha.
Feeling sleepy. Might attempt to teach Janson how to cycle tomorrow. Gonna need lotsa energy on that. and yes, the dude has no freaking idea how to cycle without 2 additional wheels to give him balance. I see tomorrow as a really tiring day. Argh!
Good luck to me? I miss my mommy!
