Even the most confident woman can be so seemingly insecure ~ Ben said to me with a smirk.Contradicting, but uncannily appropriate. One of the better brilliant remarks that I've heard from Ben lately.
His quote rang in my head ever so often, since I last saw him a couple of weeks ago.
Yes, even the most confident of them all, is after all still human, dude.
Admittedly, I am a control freak., for I dread the feeling of being uncertain, and it has been a big-ass of a habit to curb and axe off uncertainties as best as I could remember.
Just how insecure I am?
You can be dead sure that I would NEVER run out of essential necessities that I use on a daily basis, simply because I'm a hoarder and it irritates me greatly that I would run out of essentials, for it is simply something that I have TOTAL control over.
Name any essential items that I would consider important, and I'll have plenty of "backups" on hand.
Blusher - Off hand, I think I have 4 unopened powered blushers in the exact same color, 3 liquid blushers sitting in their packages, not forgetting the 1 cream blusher, 1 liquid blusher and the 4 powered ones in their assorted shades that is currently in use.
False lashes - I have a drawer full of them!
Mascara - Wands of them!
Eyeshadow - Dont even get me started on the quantity.
Toilet paper - Just ask anyone who's been to my room's toilet how many rolls do I have stacked up in my room's bathroom.
Cotton pads - Ditto
Bags - *rolll=s eyes*
Shoes - If I like a pair of footwear so much, I'll buy 2 of it.
Wardrobe staples - You do not want to know just how many white racer backs I own.
Water - I NEVER run out of drinking water at home.
I have an insane habit of boiling water whenever I'm left in charge at home, or in the hotel room, when I am traveling. Because I hate drinking hot/warm water.
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I hate being "stupid", which is why you'll rarely catch me without an opinion or knowledge about anything, for I try to read up on a big variety of anything.
I read the back of everything - from packaging of cereal boxes, to the back of my shampoo, the floor, the escalator, the bus stop posters, and anything readable that cross path with my eyes.
As I am merely human, it is only normal that there would be things that I do not know, therefore when a new subject is placed in my face, I do make a conscious effort to ask people who know, and an additional effort to google if no one has the answers.
Because I hate not being in the "know", it upsets me rather greatly to discover changes in plans involving me, and that I'm not promptly updated, no matter how minute it may be.
I rarely like to make plans in advance because there is bound to be changes and it irks me to know that everything planned usually unfolds very differently, despite going through great lengths to ensure that everything would function like clockwork. Argh.
Call it a screwed up planning method if you like, but so long as the main framework is established (things that needs to be done gets completed on time), the actual choice of approach employed is usually decided when the situation unfolds (obviously being the control freak I am, I would already have thought up few options to tide me through whatever situation my "great imagination" could get me through.)
I can get VERY worked up when ( I think I'm done for the day) plans, springs up to haunt me with unforeseen situations.
Meet Miss Autocrat, Miss insecurity.
Hello!
